"The Fat Girl"

It's not much fun being referred to as "the fat girl."  When people ask someone about you, they always say "she's a little big, brownish red hair, kinda medium height..."  I am tired of it! I cried all the way home tonight, just because I was hating the way I look.  I usually feel pretty good about myself, but one little comment can really turn things upside down, especially if it comes from someone close to you.  There are times when I look in the mirror and all I see are blobs of fat, staring at my face...that does something to you.  You are constantly thinking in your mind, who could love something like this, so hideous, so FAT!  I have tried dieting, exercising, and nothing seems to work...I still see this fat, overgrown Ogre who looks ugly in everything I try on...standing in front of a full length mirror, with tears streaming down my face while I pinch my fat until it bruises...that kind of thing really gets me.  Then go and eat a bunch of food, just to make me feel better, but later feel miserable and unable to breath... the sad thing is,  I am not the only one who feels this way...lots of women and girls and even some guys feel this way about themselves...is it healthy?  No.  Society puts so much pressure on body image that people will try anything to look better.  Even though I haven't lost weight, I still feel better when I eat healthy and exercise, but its just that food makes me happy, when I'm happy, I wanna eat and celebrate.  When I'm sad, I want to eat and cry.  It's that way for me.  Like I said...I cried all the way home tonight, because I am fat..but then a song came on the radio, and it really spoke to me.  Here is the video.  Enjoy!


http://youtu.be/qvpv2pJvmUg