I'm Back Again...

I haven't blogged about weight in a while.  I had lost 20 lbs, but in the last 2 months I've slowly gained them back.  I am starting a diet tomorrow and I know, I am the queen of diets, but I need to do this to feel better. I am posting a before picture (not too excited about posting it).  But if I have it for the world to really see how fat I am, then maybe it will help me lose the weight.

"The Fat Girl"

It's not much fun being referred to as "the fat girl."  When people ask someone about you, they always say "she's a little big, brownish red hair, kinda medium height..."  I am tired of it! I cried all the way home tonight, just because I was hating the way I look.  I usually feel pretty good about myself, but one little comment can really turn things upside down, especially if it comes from someone close to you.  There are times when I look in the mirror and all I see are blobs of fat, staring at my face...that does something to you.  You are constantly thinking in your mind, who could love something like this, so hideous, so FAT!  I have tried dieting, exercising, and nothing seems to work...I still see this fat, overgrown Ogre who looks ugly in everything I try on...standing in front of a full length mirror, with tears streaming down my face while I pinch my fat until it bruises...that kind of thing really gets me.  Then go and eat a bunch of food, just to make me feel better, but later feel miserable and unable to breath... the sad thing is,  I am not the only one who feels this way...lots of women and girls and even some guys feel this way about themselves...is it healthy?  No.  Society puts so much pressure on body image that people will try anything to look better.  Even though I haven't lost weight, I still feel better when I eat healthy and exercise, but its just that food makes me happy, when I'm happy, I wanna eat and celebrate.  When I'm sad, I want to eat and cry.  It's that way for me.  Like I said...I cried all the way home tonight, because I am fat..but then a song came on the radio, and it really spoke to me.  Here is the video.  Enjoy!


http://youtu.be/qvpv2pJvmUg

Snow=weight gain

So, we have been snowed in for 3 days.  I went back to work this past Thursday.  I did pretty well on eating; however, on Friday, I snacked and ate a huge dinner.  Saturday I ate out for 2 meals...this isn't a good thing.  Today is Sunday and I am starting over.  I have to put the past week behind me and carry on.  I am starting my exercise on Monday.  It's too cold to walk, so I am using a workout DVD.  I am thinking of joining a gym, or just paying a little each week for Zumba.  I am really trying in the next few weeks and my goal is 10 lbs.  Wish me luck!

Snow Day No No's...

Ok, I know my last entry wasn't a good one, but when I weighed yesterday I had lost 3 lbs...however, I have gained them back today.  If you don't know, the south has been hit with a snowstorm and we are pretty much confined to our houses...I have snacked all day.  If you know a snow storm is coming, please be sure to fill your fridge and cabinets with healthy foods such as fruits, yogurt, skim milk, etc.   In my house we had cheetos, the best gooey chocolate cake ever, whipped cream, cheese, etc.   I do not want to weigh myself next week..hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!

Not a healthy day, today...

Ok, so today was one of those days where all you want to do is snack.  I tried to keep the cravings at bay with my gum, but today, it wasn't satisfying.  I didn't eat large quantities of food today, just sort of nibbled...today is just one day, tomorrow will be successful. 


Tip for today:  If you feel you must give in and nibble a bit, just remember that tomorrow is another day.

My first day of exercise...

Ok, so I go to the local walking track near my house, expecting a few ppl, but it was super crowded.  I put in my skull candy's and start walking...I am doing great, no hard breathing or anything...or so I thought.  After walking at a fast pace for about 10 mins, the song stops and I can hear myself breathing like a smoker...lol.  People around me were probably wondering if I was gonna make it to my car...I continued for another 10 mins and walked back to my car...laughing and gasping for breath at the same time.  I couldn't hear myself breath but everyone around me could hear me.  Anyway, I am leaving you with a few good tips to diet/exercise.

1. to help with the munchies, buy a strong flavored gum.  I like Stride Cool Peppermint.  It keeps your mouth feeling minty fresh and causes you not to mess it up with snack foods.  If you must snack, reach for something such as pretzels or a small cup of FF yogurt.

2. when walking, bring along some tunes.  I start off with upbeat, fast songs such as "Goodbye to You" by The Veronicas, and I end with something slower like "Down" by Jason Walker

I will be posting random tips and adventures throughout my journey so keep a look out!  Have a great day!!

Ok...I know what you're thinking...

I know what you're thinking...here is another blog of a whiney fat girl who wants to be thin for beauty purposes...well you are WRONG!   I feel I am beautiful no matter what size I am and I am not trying to lose weight for the "beauty" of being thin.  I am not dieting, I am simply changing my eating and exercise habits.  I want to be a healthier person and live life without complications due to my weight.  I have been diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome which causes infertility, hormone deficiency, and severe PMS as well as blood pressure issues.  These are health conditions that can be changed with a few simple lifestyle changes.  I will blog about my journey to a healthier me periodically and include tips and recipes for a healthier you!